“Month after month I have nothing to live for; night after night brings me grief. When I lie down to sleep, the hours drag; I toss all night and long for dawn…Remember O God, my life is only a breath; my happiness has already ended.” (Job 7: 3-7).
Sometimes when I’m listening to songs, the poignant ones especially, when I’m feeling down, I feel like each word was written just for me; and somehow, as the songs play on I feel the weight on my chest ebb. I guess that’s why I love songs so much. They take me to places, and then bring me back to the present moment. In a way they heal me.
Today, I have the same nostalgic feeling, only that it’s not a song that has me drenched in those emotions. The words above are Job’s cry to God when the devil took everything away from him and God allowed it because he knew Job would forever remain faithful to him, no matter how much pain he went through; no matter how much tribulations the devil put him through.
Lately I’ve been thinking about Job’s story an awful lot. The trials Satan put him through were just too many for a mere mortal to tolerate. Still, he persevered, and even though at some point he got angry at God, his faith remained firm.
In all honesty I cannot compare my problems to Job’s, but at the same time I feel I have a few of my own too. The thing that has me comparing my situation to Job’s is that for the past few weeks, since the year started, I’ve been feeling so burdened. Mine’s a rough patch though and I have faith I will be getting over it sooner than later; keeping the faith.
However, there are instances when life hits us really bad and we find ourselves losing our faith in God. When things feel like they are spinning out of control, we let go of God; those who are ailing cease asking for God’s healing; the weak stop asking for God to renew their strength…
If Job’s story is anything to go by, then we know that even if the storm seems so ugly; even when it has destroyed everything we’ve ever cared for and there doesn’t seem to be an end in sight, the sun will always shine.
We can’t refute the fact that Job suffered; and God allowed it. But there’s that issue of God knowing our strengths and weaknesses. He knows what we can stand; what we can handle, and what we can’t. God let Job suffer because He was confident that whatever Satan put him through wouldn’t be enough to weaken his faith.
This shows us that when God allows suffering into our lives, it’s because he believes in us. He doesn’t do that because he hates us, but because he knows our faith in Him is strong. This also goes to show that if God knew we couldn’t stand the tribulations without forsaking our faith, He wouldn’t let us go through some of those very weakening moments which punch the air out of our lungs and we’re left gasping for air, trying to overcome that asphyxiating feeling.
As we can see in Job’s story; for his steadfastness, God blessed the last part of his life than he had blessed his first. He lived for one hundred and forty years after his tribulations and God gave him back what he had lost and even doubled it. (Job 42: 12-16)
Life might be difficult, and we might feel like we’re losing our grip on things; but the truth is God is watching over us and when the time’s right He will come through for us. The secret is to keep believing and trusting in him.